Somewhere in my heart

I dont know what to do right now. I miss you alot. After whatever happened, I now realise Im just not the one fr you. You deserve better. I just dont know where I stand now. I keep thinking about you, day in and day out. It hurts just thinking about what happened. It does hurt alot. You said you're disappointed. I am too. Of myself. Im scared if we go on like this, It'll be worst. Im just scared to lose you. Countless times Ive got heartbroken. And I just dont want another one. I keep loving someone so mothrfcking much that I'll end up losing them in the end. And it fcking hurts if that happens. I miss the times when we first got to knw each other, I miss our first date, and I alrdy miss our second one tho it wasnt as fun as the first but being in your arms and listening to paramore's song, was the best moment ever. Im sorry for everything bby. I really am. I love you.