I could really use a wish right now

Nobody understands how much I miss you. I miss how much we used to talk and miss all the things we used to do. I try not to admit it to myself that I still feel this way. Everything's so different now. It's hard to wait around fr something tht may never happen but its even harder when you know it's everything you want. I miss you..

You had me at hello

I've been putting evrything in my mouth alot this few days. I think Im gonna grow FAT! :| This few days have been tiring fr me. Im still as shagged as hell. Went to a gig yesterday. It was awesome. It was a fundraising event. 5 bucks was all worth it. WOOOH! HAHA! Im fcking addicted to caramel frappe! I feel like drinking it everyday. But fuck, why must it be so expensive. Cant it just cost like, 2 bucks? Bcos of Idk how many cups of caramel frappe, Im broke now know! Very the saddening. EEK! My blog getting boring-er liao de(HEHE!) Im kinda lazy to post nowadays. Busy with alot of shit. Been going out alot this few days. And gg home late as well. Not that 10 pm late, but 12 pm late. And I dont K.O the moment I reach my house. Standard, use the laptop and log in fb! HAHA. Then I'll prolly sleep like at what? 2?3? And I have to wake up at 6. SAAAAP! And when I woke up, my eyebags fcking big sia. Like its gonna take over the world liddat-.-

Caramel Frappe please

Had mad awesome fun with alot of people today. Or yesterday? Ok yea yesterday, and today. The plan was to meet up with raudha only. Coincidentally, fatyn, zahryn and Qad was at macs at white sands. End up, alot of people joined us. And we played truth or dare. Fcking fun. Oh yea! And I bought caramel frappe! DA SHIT. Fcking nice I swear. HEHE. Ok Im shagged now. Meet up soon aights you guys. Love ya.

Hello, goodmorning

Like avatar not? Hahaha. Ive been posting about love alot in my blog. Mayb I should just escape frm it, fr awhile(but not gonna escape frm it fr long tho! hahah!) Anw, I is so hungrymungy. Nothing to eat at home, not even friggin maggi! Check the fridge? Theres only chocolate, and trust me, I cant make myself full just by eating that! :/ Oh and Did I tell you that I feel so fcking accomplished!?!?! *reads throught the whole post* K, guess not. So yeah, as I was saying, I felt motherfcking accomplished la! I cn play The Only exception by Paramore on the guitar! HEHE. I is cool right? :| Hahaha. Aww shucks. I wanted to type something, then I frgt. This.always.happens.

Somewhere in my heart

I dont know what to do right now. I miss you alot. After whatever happened, I now realise Im just not the one fr you. You deserve better. I just dont know where I stand now. I keep thinking about you, day in and day out. It hurts just thinking about what happened. It does hurt alot. You said you're disappointed. I am too. Of myself. Im scared if we go on like this, It'll be worst. Im just scared to lose you. Countless times Ive got heartbroken. And I just dont want another one. I keep loving someone so mothrfcking much that I'll end up losing them in the end. And it fcking hurts if that happens. I miss the times when we first got to knw each other, I miss our first date, and I alrdy miss our second one tho it wasnt as fun as the first but being in your arms and listening to paramore's song, was the best moment ever. Im sorry for everything bby. I really am. I love you.

You are the only exception

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it
And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darlin'

You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception


Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face
And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk

You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception


I've got a tight grip on reality, but I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving in the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream


You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception


And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing

Today im happier than a bird with a french fry

I was bored. HEHE. Today was pretty much nothing special that happened. Which means, today wasnt special. The same ol' wake up in the morning, get ready fr school, study like fck(i didnt pay attention in class actually:p), eat like one fat kid during recess, continue studying like fck again. School bell rings, end of school. SAAAAAAAAAAAAP! Then slack. HEHEHEHEHEHHE. OH YEA. I FRIGGIN PASSED MY SOCIAL STUDIESSS! WOOOOH! IMMA HAPPY KID. HEHE^^v what? I keep failing stupid social studies. And now that I passed, its officially my first pass. And it felt like as if im on top of the world. Hell yea, it was a fvking good feeling c:

I less than 3 you

As soon as you get online, whose name do you look fr first? AQIL! When a slow song comes on, whose face pops up in your head? AQIL!! Whose name makes yer stomach drop when you hear it? L after I. I after Q. Q after A c: T-hee. Bby, rmmber this? It's you and me(HEHE:p) When I first met you, I've never imagined tht I would have such strong feelings fr you, I never would've thought that I would have dreams about you or miss being by your side or get butterflies in my stomach when someone mentions your name. When I first met you, I never would've thought tht I would love you. But bby, altho I dont know where I stand with you, and I dont know wht I mean to you, all I know is that evrytime when I think of you, all I wanna do is to be with you. I less than 3 you Aqil♥

Roadblock

Uh fck. I wanna be as skinny as her. I have a fcking low self-esteem. Cheebs. Besides, I really did gain weight. And evrytime I wanna lose those stubborn fats, I'll get too lazy and shit. Dammit. Cross-country's this week. I think I lost my stamina or something. I needa get it bck! :c Grr. Anyways, my heart skipped a beat just now. I was from the toilet and I was this<-->close to falling down. I have no idea why I was rushing bck to my room after I went to the toilet. So my feet kinda slipped and I was like somewhat iceskating fr tht few seconds. HAHA! But as always, Im so lucky(HEHE!)I didnt fall. Save the embarassment(altho no one was at home but still! tsk) I was laughing to myself after that. Hahaha!

I need this shit now

I NEED THIS MOTHRFCKING AWESOME SHIT BELT.
MUST BUY BUT WHERE!?! I WNNA GO
OVERSEAS AND BUY IT SINCE THERE
ISN'T ANY IN SPORE :c

Do you know how hard Ive tried to bcme wht u wnt me to be

I want someone I can go to. Someone I can tell my secrets to. Someone who wont judge me with the mistakes that I've made, for the mistakes I will continue to make. I want someone who understands. I want someone who hears, not just listens. I want someone who says goodnight to me, and prays to god they get the chance to say good morning. I want someone who knows my quirks. I want someone who wipes my tears away. I want someone who needs me. I want someone who loves me.

A habit that I cant stop

Nyehahs. It happens all the time c:

Crash slow

Im sucha pig. Talking about pigs, I saw a dead rat(idk how pigs have any link with rats but theyre fcking animals right! hahaha!)on the road. And I dont really mind having a stiff dead animal there infrnt of my eyes. But the fact tht it's FCKING SQUASHED LIKE NBCB!! That is, yes I know, FCKING DISGUSTING. Elaborate more? Intestines were all squeezed out of that poor thing. And I think the ants or birds or whtever ate its eyes. Cos I dont see no eyeballs there. HAHA. Gruesome shit. And I thought it was a cat at first, but then again cats are big in size, then i thought it was a rabbit, but I realise the ears werent that long. So basically, it's a rat. And then SOMEONE just had to tell me "What if it's a kitten?" _|_ Dont scare me leh :c

You're the best Ive ever had

A, Im in love with your lips. I cant stop wanting more of your kisses. You live in my heart that's fo sure. My heart's a home fr you. I love you alot bby. I thought about you all day today and I just wanted to let you know that I miss you and I cant wait to be in your arms again♥

Bby I can break it down

I cant stop laughing to myself. Two nights ago. I wanted to post something on my blog. But somehow I think my laptop was too hot that it shut down by itself. And I had to like cool it first and restart tht shit again. The loading was so slow, I just had to close my eyes for awhile. Fr god's sake, I wanted to use the lappy to chat with bby and blog-.- But, When I woke up, I realise my laptop couldn't be on-ed cos batt was dead. The funny part was, when I woke up it was alrdy Friday! Nyehahs! And I had to bathe after that to get ready fr school. Sasuay. End up I didnt even get to do wht I wanted :/

With a common denominator

You know that feeling, when you look at him.. Wow I love him but he's way outta my league, or maybe when he looks at her and it hurts so much sometimes, when you're in love with him and he's in love with her. You love everything about him and he loves everything about her. You wasted all your 11:11 wishes on him, you've kept it in for so long that no one knows how confused you are. Do you tell him how much you like him? Or do you keep it in, as usual? It's confusing or "it's complicated" is your answer when someone asks you what's wrong. When you look at them together, your eyes fills up with tears, because you love him, you love him so much and sometimes you just wish he knew.

I was naive, got lost in your eyes

"I woke up today feeling like Lil Wayne, my voice all fcked up haha" Aww. Haha. How cute. No matter how stupid you may be, You know I Fck you still fcker. HAHAH! And I hope you stick to your promise uh fcker. If not you die and I'll make u burn in hell, you fcking playa. HEHE♥

She had problems with drinking milk and being school tardy

R.I.P. Havaianas :c My havaianas died yesterday. Someone broke it, accidentally broke it. It was during Alex's party. Suhwaaaaay right! I had fun n'ways. Haha! The best shit eva, I went home at like in the fcking morning, and had to wake up in the fcking morning(no, not afternoon but mrning!)to accompany mummy to buy some shit(oi. not literally shit uh) Oh wait, tht's not the best shit yet. My fcking eyebacks took over the world uh! Hahaha. Im still sleepy now. But my stupid laptop misses me alot. HEHE.

They were all red bt they gave me the blues

I somehow feel tht im tumblr-ing instead of actually blogging. It feels so tumblr-ish. HAHAHA! Ok so anyhooo, I hope me and my girls will have a blast at alex's party tmr. Tht's sooo the last party im gg to bfre MYE. And then after that Im gonna start doing my hardcore revision. PROMISE *fingers crossed* T-HEE c:

slow down, you crazy child, you're so ambitious for a juvenile

If only she didn't take drugs and create tabloids, she would be perfect. But I still love her anw. She's fcking hotttttttttttttttttttttt! I wanna love her cn? HEHE. I FINALLY GOT MY PHONE BCK TODAY. I JUMPED FR JOY THE MOMENT I GT REUNITED WITH MY PHONE. HAHAHA! WHAAAAAAAAAAAAT. I miss it :c And the first person who msged me was the fcking playa. Hahaha. Fck you A♥ OH OH, ITS BLONDEEE JOKE TIMEEE(: HEHE. So a blonde says this to a brunette, "Excuse me, but each time I sip my coffee, my eye seems to hurt." (THIS IS FCKING STUPID I SWEAR! HAHAH! CONTINUE READING!) The brunette says, "Well maybe you should take the spoon out of the cup."(HAHA! DAMN CUTE I SWEAR)~~~~~~~~~~~~~A blonde was having sharp pains in her side. The doctor examined her and said, "You have acute appendicitis." The blond yelled at the doctor.."I came here to get medical help, not get a stupid compliment!!"(NYEHEHS!)~~~~~~~~~~A blonde got a dent in her car and took it in to the repair shop. The repairman, noticing that the woman was a blonde, decided to have a weebit of fun. So he told her all she had to do was to take it home and blow in the tailpipe until the dent popped itself out. After 15 minutes of doing this, the blonde's BLONDE friend came over and asked what she was doing. "I'm trying to pop out this dent, but its not really working." "Duh. You have to roll up the windows first!" hahahhahahhhah! fcking cute sia. Blonde joke's the best(Y)

mid year madness

MUST PASS EXAMS!
MUST STUDY HARD!
MUST PASS EXAMS!
MUST STUDY HARD!
MUST PASS EXAMS!
MUST STUDY HARD!
MUST PASS EXAMS!

Empty hearts and voices talking

I NEED A HUG :c
I NEED A HUG :c
I NEED A HUG :c
I NEED A HUG :c
I NEED A HUG :c
I NEED A HUG :c
I NEED A HUG :c
I NEED A HUG :c

it's this repetitive nonsense

Excuse me mr kandasamy. HAHHAA! Sorry laa. That song's stuck in my head. And yes, it's a song. Not some kind of rhyme shit tht I came up with -.- HEEHEE. I needa shop like real soooon. I needa update my wardrobe. It's so boring nowwww. My wardrobe's like facebook. In facebook, you have to keep updating your status/dp so tht it wont be plain jane. Well, same goes to my friggin wardrobe la! I needa keep updating the clothes/bras/panties/bottoms and whtever i have to wear to cover myself up, so tht I wont be wearing the same thing again! = bo.ring. Which the equation is then equals to, needs to shop like REAL SOON. I need the kaching :c $.$!!

The sun shines in the bedroom when we play

Fck you. Fck you. Fck you.

Oh my heart, I want you to be strong

L is after I. I is after Q. Q is after A♥

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Oh lord. I wish I cn set myself free and do whatever I like. And fck anyone who ever gets in my way. Jump frm the highest story to feel the adrenaline rush and not die on the spot or even get injured. Find a guy who, is obviously not an asshole(Uhuh, I have a huge level of difficulty in that :|) Be perfect, yeah tht's what I want in life right now. At least I wouldnt have to feel my fatself and be all worried about my weight and how I look like when I know tht im perfect. But unfrtunately, This is reality bebeh! I gotta keep my nose up high like it's bleedin*nigga slang* wooooosh! Sigh.