I have a monster on my fingers

WOAH. So that's how our fingers look like in the inside. I've always wondered how it looks like inside. Now I have the answer. HAHAH! It looks like yknow the monster in idk wht movie but yeah, the mouth. LIKE THAT UH! Or any show with stupid monsters who eats up buildings and people or whtever. I mean, evrything's edible to them-.- HAHAH. I bet you get this fr masturbating too hard(MUAHAHAHAH!)or fr playing too much taptap! Gee. I needa stop playing that nw. I dont wnt my fingers to end up like that! No matter how cool it looks like, Na uh. No. If that happens, Im gonna put on some nice looking plaster on it. HAHAH! Hello kitty or spongebob plasters mayb? HEHE. Make it look cuter^^

Do you know how hard I've tried?

Im still coping with things. I thought I was strong, but I was wrong. But thanks to those who were there fr me when I needed someone to talk to. To name a few: Kris, Lemon, Karmillah, Ziqko, Dinno. Without them, I dont think tht there will ever be a smile on my face. Gee. I thought this would be easy but no. I guess not. All those memories, theyre too difficult to be erased. Im gonna hold my nose up like its bleedin. Im gonna put tht frown upside down. Im gonna be strong. Aint gonna let shit put me down. Sigh.

I treasure evry bit of it

You dont know how much it hurts while I was typing out tht msg fr you that was meant to be sent through facebook. I deleted you off so that I wont keep looking at your account evry fcking minute. You dont know how much you mean to me. All those memories. Im pretty sure tht i wont frget our first date. and how we said I fck u as our i love you code. Im never ever gonna frget the time when we were stnding so close to each other while listening to paramore's only exception. The 'camp' outside your house. The drama when I missed the bus. The kisses in the cinema. Im gonna miss your hugs. And Im really gonna miss your nomnomnom. Those were the sweetest memories tht I'll ever cherish. Being with you evrytime, were the best moment ever eventho it was only fr a few hours. and sometimes, I alrdy missed you eventho we just met a few minutes ago on which ever day we met. And now it all just keeps crashing down on me. At the end of the day, I found myself drenched in tears.. I just wanted US to happen so badly. The only thing tht I cn keep to rmmber you are the memories and your picture, as my wallpaper. Im really gonna miss you alot aqil. Thanks once again, fr evrything. Love you. xx.

Trust me, I would if I could

Why do I keep listening to the same song over and over again? :'c

Today's The Day, When Dreaming, Ends.

Now that you've read the post, I guess this will be the last post that Im ever gonna post about you. No, Im not happy with whtever is happening right now. You wanna whtever me like u did last time? Then go ahead. I had enough really. Im waiting fr you, but at the same time, hurting myself. I understnd that you're busy and shit. Totally cool with that. But you're keeping me hanging for long. The talks that we had, it did help but only fr a short while. You're so special to me, and not talking about you to my friends evryday is a sin. And when I do talk about you, the butterflies in my stomach doesnt fail to appear. Evrytime when I listen to only exception by paramore, It's you that I think about all the time. I love you alot, and I really do miss you. I miss the old us. I miss your hugs and kisses. And every time when I’m with you, there’s a constant smile on my face. The piece missing from my heart, you have somehow replaced. You know that I care about you, but you don’t know how much. I find myself falling in love, with someone I know I cant have. I guess I've been dreaming all this while. Look, I may not be the perfect girl that every guy would wish for. I may not be that pretty, but let me tell you this: I can love you truly with all of my heart. I dont wish to leave you at all.. But like you said, time will tell. And I guess. This. is. it? I dont knw about you. But I wish to hear frm you soon. Love you alot. xx.♥

All I wanted to do was to eat nutella

I am soooo frigggin pizzzzed! Alright, so like not long ago, I had this sudden craving of eating bread(i nearly frgt whts roti in english-.- HAHA!)with nutella. So I rummaged through the fridge. Nope, no sign of nutella. Checked on the oven or elsewhere on the table in the kitchen. Nope, still no sign. Reach out fr the cupboard knob*fingers crossed tht i'll find nutella in there* Voila! Found it. Even better, not tht kinda normal small size nutella, but the HUMUNGOUS ONE. HAHA! Felt like the luckiest bitch ever, but my happiness ended fr awhile only. Rmmber I said I had the sudden crave fr nutella with BREAD? Saw the bread. Fck yes. My luck(Y) Power. But then again, cheat my feelings. Only left a few slice of bread inside. And theyre not even perfect! .l.(^_^).l.Yknow the few slices of ugly bread tht you'll find at the bottom of the whole bread in the plastic packet? YES UGLY, NOT PERFECT. In the end, I forced myself to eat it anw. Cos I was just damn hungry. Besides, the chocolate inside that huge nutella bottle, so mthrfcking tempting. I swear. T-hee(:

Pull the trigger

There was a moment in my life, well not a moment, but alot of times, when I wanted to undo all my mistakes. But no point crying over spilt milk. Gotta learn from mistakes. Chin up.

I hate to let you go, but i love to see you leave

I may not be perfect. I may not be the preetiest girl, the hottest girl, the nicest girl, the smartest girl, the cutest girl you've ever met. But that doesnt give you the right to toy with my feelings. Ive been waiting fr so long. It has been like what? 1 month plus? And I dont see any difference in anything. Except fr the fact that we're not talking now. I dont wnna waste my time, Nor do I wnna waste yours. Not that Im wasting my time loving you, in fact I cherish evry minute of loving you, but Im wasting my time expecting things that wont obviously happen. Like I said, I dont see us together. Now you know the reason why. We're starting to fade away from each other. I dont wnna keep waiting fr your msg. And be excited about getting a msg but all tht excitement ended only to find out tht it's nt frm you. You have your other girls to go to, so why not you just stick to them. I still dont understnd why you wnna stick to me. You made me fall fr you, and in the end you left me hanging. I dont get you really. You, and your sweet nothings. It seems clear to me now that Im the only one whose thinking about us more than you do. Correct me if Im wrng. I dont check your fb nowadays. I dont even give two shits about wht you're up to now anw. Do what you want, really. As long as you're happy, Im so cool with that. I give up. But just to let you know, you're the best thing that has ever happened to me this year. Something about you is just different. Not sure wht it is tho. But yeah. I love you alot. But it kinda hurts now when i think about us. I still dont knw where I stnd. If you're reading this, You know who you are. Bye.

Carry out

Not been updating my blog lately. Sorry about that. Im kinda busy. But now, since exam's over, Fck yea it's party time. NYEHAHS! Went to crash in at kris's crib on sat morning till mon morning. Aint that awesome shit? Like monday I had POA exams and I went home only at 5 am? That's like mad. I dont know wht I was thinking. I didnt even study fr accounts. I suck at it. My basics aint that strong anw. Well not my fault. I was suspended frm school the first few weeks. HEHE. I is cool. Look at the photo up there. Me and Kris' had like a mini photoshoot at her new room. HAHA. Had mad fun uh. Aint her maxi dress pweety? I is in love. Hahahaha. Oh yeah, on friday went out to town with raudha, nass and the rest. Reached pasir ris at 12 ish. Slacked at macs whitesands till like 4 am. Then walked to Kris's crib. Reached there at 4.3o am. And only slept at 5. Fck. My eyebags, cheebong. Big sia. HAHA. But had fun anw(:

Can I let the sky fill what's missing in?

I am loved and loving. I am surrounded by love. I easily attract loving people and experiences into my life. I embrace and claim a life filled and overflowing with love. I am grateful fr the love that surrounds me. My circle of loving friends continues to expand. Love is what I am. I am a magnet fr more and more love. I joyfully express love everyday. I love myself exactly the way I am. I radiate love to evryone and evrything. The more love I give, The more love I receive. The love in my soul freely and fully expresses itself. Love is all around. Today I release the past and allow the healing power of love into my life. I am in love with my life.

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It's been long since I've last posted. Kinda busy, well, REALLY BUSY. Im sorry blog fr abandoning you, but you still look so pweety. HEHE. I think Im gonna grow white hair any minute now. IM JUST SO STRESSED UP. Exams are on and my brains all cramped up with shitload of formulas and I cannot tahan anymore. HAHA. I can die. now. Im sick anw. My nose keeps running. It's annoying. It feels like there's a tap water on my nose(sounds digusting? HAHA SHUTTUP)without the knob or whtever thing u call it. Nyehahs! I saket :c

Follow me down

Fck you and your bull.

Alone with the sunrise

OMG IM IN LOVE WITH HIMMMM!!! SUCH AN EYECANDY! I WNNA LICK HIM LIKE A LOLLIPOP! HEHEHEHEH! Gross? I know uh but shuttup. I cant help it what. He's just so cute c: His nose, so cute. His eyes, so sexaye. His lips, so yummy. His collarbone, AHHHHH! I bet God took more than 4857384992 hours to make him. Cos he's so perfecto. He looks like a mannequin. Well, I'd like to bring this mannequin home to my room one day fr me to stare at c:

I wish I was that good

I am? I dont think so. Life's fcked up this days. But what's life without it's ups and downs huh? But my ups and downs i tell u! My downs are as deep as the holes in the cheese(wait, thts not even deep-.- Imagine VERY DEEP HOLES TILL IT GOES THROUGH THE CHEESE. HEHE)and my ups are.. just not there? Anw, had my english paper on friday. Had to do an essay about the topics given. I dont think so I can ace in that.I couldnt think of much nicer ideas to write on that piece of paper. I only wrote like, 1 and a half of the paper. BAD RIGHT! tsk. Tuesday's maths and social studies! :O I is very scared. Wish me luck people. I am going to cheat. HAHA KIDDING(:

So's your face

AHHHH! RINGS RINGS RINGS! Talking about rings, Diva's having a sale frm 9 bucks^^ There wont be school tmr, which means.. LET'S.GO.SHO.PPING! HEHEHE! Ah then again, tuesday's maths and social studies. Shit. Two very difficult subjects in one day. I think my brain's gonna explode or some shit. Maybe if Ive shopped enough then I can focus on my studies? NYEHAHS! c: