logic is the anatomy of thought

URGHHHHHH! LIFE SUCKS SO MUCH THAT I NEED TO SHOP!! YES SHOP!!! HAHAHAHAH! Went to Tamp1 and Tampmall then to downtown today with Kris' ♥ window shoppppinggggg :DD Lemme tell you something, all the clothes at topshop were like calling out my name. They wnt me to buy them! I pity them so much. I'll buy yall soon k bbies! HEHE! *fingers crossed hopping mum will give me kaching and not nag instead* :p I just calculated the total of what I wanna buy, and it's like 250 ish bucks. DAMN GIRL. That's like fcking alot. HAHAHAH. HI MUM, IF YOU'RE READING THIS I LOVE YOU :DD HEHE♥

Black and gold

I dont think so Im ever gonna hear that from you. I thought you were the one, but I was wrong. So wrong. Why did we have to rush in things? I realise my mistakes nw. I didnt even know you that well. I admit I like you. But evrything about you, the real you, it's really starting to show.

We're all stuck in our ways

OMGGGGGGGG! Isnt's he the sexiest shit(what? not the real shit la duh!) evaaaa!?! I think im melting now. No wait, Im drooling(I know I sound like some hungry shit now trying to eat him up or smething but who cares!? :p) HE'S JUST SO FVCKING HOT. Look at his tattoo! So pweettyyyyyy! kawaisxzxzxsxzx! Starstar all, so kiyooooot!! HAHAH! And no, his name is not lee ho-suk or lee jung-su. BUT JR.CELSKI! (even the name cute right i know!! haha!) I got crushcrush on you how? HEHE.

No mom, yes mom.

Yes mom, I wont slash my hand anymore mom. I wanna be pweety mom. I dont wnt my hand to be as ugly as ugly betty mom. Im sorry mom. And no I wont take drugs mom. But only panadol mom. Nothing more than that. Im sorry mom. I will behave mom. *Halo slowly coming out* Hallelujah. Hahahah!

This is modern elegance and freedom of expression

WOOOH! I think girls who have this kinda hairstyles are friggin badass. Fvcking hot^^ I salute those who actually shaved part of their hair like this. It takes alot of courage to actually shave(not chop but shave!! :O)their head cos we girls obviously treat our hair MUCH bttr than our pets. HAHA! and to shave em off, oh boy. I think I'll cry. But it's fvcking badass, tht's fo sure. Casssssssie ♥

Moon asked the crow

"Eh like dead only my blog :c" "Go update la!"-.-

OMG SHE LOOKS HOT. who? SHE! whose's she? ME! HAHAHA! K SHH. HAHA :D -.- Sorry laa, but nonsense wakes up the brain cells whaaat. Hahaha. And basically my brain cell's dead(it always is when my mom asks me to study-.-HEHE) NICE NT THE PHOTO!? HAHA! There's more in my facebook. Took a hell lot of mamafcking photos in cheryl's crib bfre we head off to sarah's birthday party at costa rhu(some condo at TANJUNG RHU^^weeee!) Hahaha! Had alot of fun tho I had to go off early. Bummer-ang! T-hee (: I realise alot of people now are using c: instead of (:/:D and :c instead of :(/ D: But the c like cute sia. HAHA! Maybe I should use tht(or not?)to make my smile or frown look cuter. HAHAH! -.-

Bury me, five thousand phantoms deep.

It's only just a dream where I only felt happy fr awhile, and woke up feeling all stupid. Dreams dont really come true. It always happens the opposite in reality. That's when it freaks me out. It's like as if I predicted my luck or something. Even so, I still had high hopes. High hopes that will come crashing down on me when I realise that I hve the habit on having high hopes on things that won't happen, at all. It sucks big time when you know you're not the luckiest bitch. When you know that luck's not always on your side. Just thinking about it makes me feel all low and shit. I just need to stop dreaming. Dreams are really sweet sometimes, but sometimes I wish I never had sweetdreams :|

Piece of the puzzle, you're missing my part.

Look at that dude on top there. HAHAHA! It has been a long time since I last saw this dude. He was from c|(bonchet) to 0(fat). NYEHAHS! BUT STILL CUTE K! HAHA! I chatted with miko. Then he went offline, then coincidently, this dude went online after miko went offline. So basically, I chatted with the two awesomest dudes in one day. Boy, I miss them so much. Go out soon alright? Miss yall like nbcb toot toooooot! HAHAH!

Outta my mind

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!! I WANNNT THISS.
IT'LL BE HEABEN SIA(HEHEHEH! :p)
I DONT MIND GETTING FAT ON THIS NUTELLA FELLA^^

I know everything you did is good fr me

I wish I was born with a paperbag covering my face. I wish evryone's born like that. Well at least you dont have to worry about your looks, wrinkles, save money on make up, botox, and the best part is, guys wont love us fr our looks but our hearts instead. That'll be the best part ever.

Field of fire

Ahhhh!! I feel like rolling this kitten down the hill!! Talking about cats(eventho it's supposed to be kitten but who cares?!), I couldn't get my mind off the dead cat that I saw at my uncle's condo at KL. I think it slipped off somewhere(since it was raining)from god knows which floor. You know what, let's look on the bright side. I think the cat wanted to feel how it's like to fly. And when it jumped off, maybe the cat thought that he was really flying only to find out that SPLAT! He was actually flying downwards. OH HELL. And I thought that cat was fcking sleeping and I wanted to pat it, damn then I saw the blood!!! It felt like some horror shit fr tht few seconds. Aiyomaiyo. Poor kitty.. I hope you're doing fine up there :'( Geez, so much fr cats having 9 lives :|

When he's bust down next to me

Kawaiiexzxezxzxsx! Bake me that and
I swear I'll love you. T-HEE! :D
But theyre just too cute to be eaten up. Oreo ftw man!
OMG TODAY IS THE DAY, THE DAY, THE DAY. IM GONNA GO SHOPPINGGGG!!
AND AND AND MEET GRETCHEN'S SON! HEHE♥

A cute little dog was what she saw

This cracked me up big time. And yeah, still had to do with the disgusting drawing, Aaron's signature drawing. HAHAHA! AND NAY WAS MUCH MUCH SLOWER THAN ME! She thought tht it was a fcking dog, not just any dog but a CUTE ONE. HAHAHA! Nay's so cute(:

Yellow yellow dirty pellow

NbCbLjFckKnnBreastPorkRibsHairynehnehPuki :|

I swear my mind was so clean until Mr Kingky Titus had to make it yellow when he asked fr my number just to send me his naked photos. You think what? Like email uh. Tsk. And then he just had to show me he's(according to him)cute photo. It took me like what? More than 5 seconds to actually figure out wht the photo was about? That it was actually a combination of a dick, hairy pussy and boobs? Grr. More than friggin 5 seconds know!!! I cn still ask how come the nose looks like a dick-.-HAHAHAH! I admit I was slow(what? no one's perfect anw. Hehe:p) but still. T-HEE. Oh god, forgive me fr thinking dirty. IT WAS KINGKY'S FAULT!!!!*points 10 fingers at aaron* HURRHURR.

Im your huckleberry

OMGADDDDXZZXZXZ!! I FEEL LIKE PINCHING HIM EVRYWHERE!!(not that part tho, hell no) Hehe.

A shuffling, awkward gait.

Going shopping tmr!! HEHE :D Gonna buy a hell lot of dresses+accessories+tops+bottoms= not enough space in my wardrobe. But I can always make space fr the new bbies to make friends with my old clothes. HEHE. Shbamz.

Earthquakes can shake us

Cool huh? That's my bradduh and his bradduh from another madduh. HAHAHA! I was just joking btw. Talking about jokes(tho it was joking but who cares :p), I got some pretty sick ass blonde jokes. Haha. So this blonde keeps walking down her drive to her mail box. She keeps doing this until her neighbour asks her why she is doing that. The blonde replies, " My computer keeps telling me that I've got mail." Haha. Pretty cute huh? I got another one, a blonde calls her husband at work one day and asks him, "Can you help me when you get home?" "Sure,"he replies. "What's the problem?" "Well, I strted a really hard puzzle and I cant even find the edge pieces." "Look on the box,"he said. "There's always a picture of what the puzzle is." "It's a big rooster," she said. The husband arrives home and tells his blonde wife, "Okay, put the corn flakes bck in the box." HAHAHAHHA! DAMMNNNNN.

You popped my heart

I dont know what to do now. I just dont feel like loving again.
It sucks being in love. It really does.
I mean yeah, ive experienced alot of bad
moments being in a relationship,
but like what they say,
if you're willing to swim in the ocean of love,
be prepared to get hit by the waves. True that.
But nah, I'll never love again.

And I know that it's complicated
But I'm a loser in love so baby
Raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends
I'll never talk again
Oh boy you've left me speechless
And I'll never love again,

And when we watch the sun go down

And when things started to get better, some shit just had to ruin it. Just had a talk with my mom. Like a heart to heart talk with her. Nah, Im not being emo or whatever, we talked about school. Like whether or not I still wanna continue schooling at the school that Im schooling at now. She wants me to transfer school. Well, for my own good that is. I feel like transferring to some other school, but at the same time, I dont wnna leave my friends :/ And why are people talking to me about love? It's really annoying. It's not like as if I need to settle down fast. Everytime when I thought I actually fell in love with someone, it always ends up the way that I didnt want it to be. Like what I said in one of my posts, I have this habit on having high hopes on things tht wont last or on things that wont actually happen. So why bother on this mushymushy love things? Simply.just.a.waste.of.time.

My nails are painted blue.

I want my nails to be like that!
Idk why, it seems like my nails doesnt like to get painted.
I'll never fail to hit something and then it spoils the paint.
And then I have to do it all over again. Bummer.
And then the whole process starts all over again.
I hit something, the paint on my nails gets chipped off,
paint all over again, hit something,
the paint gets chipped off, yadayadayada.
I hate my nails:/

I fell on the floor cos I couldnt take it anymore

Good enough I didnt spread it to the whole world and be all ego and stuff. I told you the truth, and it's good enough that I had the courage to do so. And I did say it wasnt the right time for me. Im still young. And I just wanna focus on my studies right now since i've missed alot in school especially gettin suspended fr more than 3 weeks in total. So what do you not understand? And besides, Ive alrdy had enough of shit in my mind that I have to think about now so please, dont add more shit to this small brain of mine. Im gonna get a headache anytime soon now. And dont come and tell me that I will regret it and come running back atcha if I really did REGRET IT. Cos boy, it shows me how egoshit you can be. How you want people to know that you're not the one breaking hearts. How you want people to hate me so much. How you just want things to work out just the way you want it to. How self-centered you can be. Now I've seen your true colors, all the more I feel disgusted by your attitude,all the more it makes me happy fr making tht decision, all the more I wont regret it, and all the more I wont be running or crying back at you dude. So no worries. You just made my life easier. Thank you(Y) And yeah, go ahead and run your mouth like a bitch. Cos you know what? You're not significant in my life, which means, I dont give a fck about wht you're gonna say about me. Cos you're just making me famous. Call me a bitch, cos you made me one since you've crossed the line. You're more of a bitch than I am sucker.

And you just couldnt hold it anymore

A blonde and a brunette are taking a walk, and the brunette goes,
"Oh look, a dead bird, "and the blonde looks up the
sky and goes,"Where?"

I came upon this joke and I jst had to laugh
cos it was jst so friggin cute and funny at the same time.
What? I needed something to crack me up what. I just needed to
laugh so hard. Well, I didnt laugh tht hard when
I read this, but still. (Y)

Im too cool for school

"Please ensure that your daughter uses the time to do self-reflection and that she is meaningfully occupied during her suspension. She is also to use this time to contemplate on her option to transfer to another school." Nicely done(Y) Third day of school I got suspended fr more than 2 weeks. And now, just fr 1-week. But still, another bad record. What has the world gotten into really. I never knew I'd be like this the moment I step into secondary school life. It sucks that my parents had to come down school twice. The worst part is, it's only march now. And I have like what? More than 5 more months till school's over fr this year. And god knows what other shit im gonna get myself into in the next 5 months. Im scared. I wanna transfer out but then again, it's difficult to quickly adapt to a new school, new friends. Furthermore, I needa buy the uni and what not. So I guess I'll just accept the suspension and continue schooling there then :/

And to my dearest bbygirl, Beverly. Chill k? I hope evrything will go well fr you tmr. Call me if anything happens. I'll always be here fr you if you need me. Love you.

Romeo's distress.

Something in me is telling me that Im anorexic. And that scares the shit out of me. But then again, it's kinda true. Im on a diet when Im not even fat. Everytime I look in the mirror, It seems like I keep gaining weight each day when Im still skinny. I think Im obsessed about being skinny. But I realised, why put my body through alot of pain to achieve a dangerous goal? I should be obsessed in being healthier than skinnier. Truth is, no number can predict how healthy a person is, where you dont even need methods of calculation to see that one is clearly unhealthy; a bunch of digits cant spill the beans on your active or sedentary lifestyle. To top it off, losing weight doesnt ensure ANYONE a healthier happier life. True that huh? So to those plus size mamachickas, you dont have to be ashamed about your weight or even let stereotypes dictate your life. Just understand that having more pounds doesnt necessarily make you healthy or unhealthy; neither does it make you less of a human being(:

This Autistic Imperium Is Nihil Reich

Thank you for not smoking. Cigarette smoke is the residue of your pleasure. It contaminates the air, pollutes my hair and clothes, not to mention my lungs. This takes place without my consent. I have a pleasure, also. I like beer now and then. The residue of my pleasure is urine. Would you be annoyed if I stood on the chair and pissed on your head and your clothes without your consent?

You will find me at the spring of consciousness

J. He's gay. Dont think differently. Not the gay as in MLM(man like/love man) but the gay as in happy. HEHE. Everytime when I meet him, he never fails to show up with a smile on his HANSHEM face. Even if he has a frown on his HANSHEM face, it'll only last a few minutes. He has something in him that will make you smile. His huge earlobes. They're so huge that it's a must for you to actually touch it, but you know what's better? Just pull it till the earlobes touches his chest. GROSS. Hahaha. And if you're a fan of frolicks, it's a must for you to be friends with this dude. I'll promise you that he will surely treat you fr a cup, any cup saizeee. HEHE. To be honest, he's a nice guy. He'll make you laugh when you're down. He'll lend you his ears to listen to your problems and his shoulders for you to cry on. He'll send you to your house just to make sure that nothing happens on your way home. A gentleman indeed OR perhaps a gentlegayman. ^^v He's the awesomest guyfriend any girl cn ever ask for:D Ly jgayboy.

16 shells from a Thirty-Ought Six.

Here I am trying my best to stop shouting vulgarities but then again, no one can live without some 'vulgar soul' in you right? Haha. I really wanna stop on my fuck here fuck there nb here nb there cb here cb there puki here puki there lanjiao here lanjiao there your mother's pussy here your mother's pussy there. HAHA! I, Fatin Supafly, promise to stop shouting vulgarities. It sounds like a joke but it's not. Tho Im kinda laughing to myself right now(HEHE) But for once I felt like an angel when I pledge to not shout vulgarities. Eh wait, I cant possibly STOP shouting vulgarities right. Like I said, no one can live without a 'vulgar soul' in you. ^^ Let me put it as, I shall MINIMIZE on shouting vulgarities.(Y) Thumbs up Fatin. You're on the right path to being an angel.(I know right^^ Hahaha!)

Take a breath and step forward.

It took me quite sometime to realise that people nowadays choose their friends by their physical appearance. And it took me awhile to realise that appearance catches the eye and a nice attitude captures the heart. But still, the appearance catches the eye FIRST. If you're not good-looking then people wont even bother to look at you or make friends with you. I mean yeah they'll look at you but they wont give you the second look. So why cant it be the other way round? Why cant the attitude capture the heart FIRST? Instead of the appearance shit? It just bugs me alot. Especially when someone you just knew was really close to you but when he/she just made friends with someone more good-looking than you, they'll just put you aside like some apple just waiting to rot and be dumped in the bin. Why cant evryone be ugly? At least all of us will be different base on our attitude.

All the single ladies, now put your hands up.

If you're on a date with someone who you really like, rmmber to be exactly who you are, not who you think he wants to be with. Cos you know what, if he cant handle you, then he just isn't worth your time. If they dont like what they see then you shouldnt either. And just stick to the usual cardinal rules of first dating(cheh! Nyehehs! :D), Dont talk about your ex or previous lovers. Dont reveal evrything about yourself. Cos girl, you needa maintain that alluring aura of mystery so he'll want to keep coming back for more. And obviously, dont talk about love and finding THE ONE and mush like that. This isnt oprah, you'll just scare him off. So start looking in a mirror now and slap both cheeks twice, check your best Miss Universe pageant smile, and tell yourself that you're all set to get your man. Because you are(:

I only like NY as a friend.

Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong and no one understands you? Do you ever wanna run away? Do you lock yourself in your room with the radio on turned up so loud that no one hears you screaming? No, you don't know what it's like when nothing feels all right. You don't know what it's like to be like me. I am angsty. I'll be angsty until im 80 years old. I think that keeps things fresh. But I always think angst is sucha derogatory word toward teenagers. It just means you're figuring shit out, and I dont know why that's a negative thing when in reality, about a million other people are feeling the same thing.

Bittersweet symphony.

What kind of guys am I really attracted to? I dont have a type anymore. I had a type at one point and it took maturing to realise, that this, thing here(MY FACE) is a shell and it's lovely for a very limited time. So to be with someone based solely on physical appearance is just stupid. It's like falling in love with a rose while it's alive, not realising that the rose will wither and eventually die. Same goes to guys. It's easy to find the cutest or the hottest guy, but it's difficult to find the nicest guy :/

Step into my quiet violence.

Back when we didn't have to live we could start again.

The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes up alot of your time. What do you get in the end? A death. What's that, A bonus?!? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first. Then you go live in an old age home. You get kicked out for being too healthy, go collect your pension. Then, when you start work, you get a gold watch on your first day. You work forty years until you are young enough to enjoy your retirement. You drink alcohol, you party, and you get ready for high school. You go to primary school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back, you spend your last 9 months floating with luxuries like central heating, spa, room service on tap, then you finish off as an orgasm. Amen.

The heavy sarcasm in your voice gives me a sense that you're kidding.

Imagine that.

The stillness is a burn.

Im wasting my life doing something stupid. Im getting fatter day by day. My face's turning ugly. Im getting old. My hair's not growing an inch. My voice doesn't sound good. Im not feeling well. Someone just had to ruin my day or should I say, DAYS. School's getting boring. I miss eating frolicks. Where's Jonathan Francis gayboy Wan. My eyebags are getting bigger. Facebook's getting alot more lifeless and just plain boring. Life's fcked up. I cant tune my guitar. My prepaid's low. My fingers' aching. Minah keeps reminding me that I always keep him hanging. Im pissed but what to do. American Idol just started. Goodnight readers. I love you. xo.

Lloyd, Im ready to be heartbroken.

Dude, I had mad love for you. You know I do.

But I realise now, the day when I got off my seat

with a smile on my face, looking like a retard,

that happiness that I felt only lasted for a few days.

I guess I really should stop having high hopes on you.

Or even stop thinking about you.

It hurts more now than it did 8 months ago :(

To make you listen now, to make you suffer later.

You know one time. You know one time. You know one time. HAHA. Im annoying am I?So this problem thing between ____ and the rest of us, it's just really stupid. Wait, is the problem stupid or is she just stupid? Yknow babe, if you keep twisting stories, you're just making evryone else's life difficult cos they won't know who to trust. But obviously they won't trust you. Cos you're the one who started all of this thrash talk first. We've tolerated with your bitchings enough. I knew about you bitching behind my back long time girl.But I thought you'll change in the future since it's your life whom you're gonna ruin if you continue this habit of yours. But no you didnt, and now you crossed the line and I guess you feel pretty much ruined now. No friends. How fun can your life get?And you can still act as if you're one big MF but in the end you did something that shows us all what a coward and a loser you are, my friend.

I appreciate your 'courage' to apologise to us through SMS-.- I'll forgive you but I wont forget.

You're invincible to me now. T-hee(:

Bye ___.

Cravin' for an ounce of cream.

Im sorry mom. I wasted like prolly alot of water. HEHE. I know you love me still.

Your heart's black.

My imaginary friend thinks you have problems.

Girl, I thought of blogging about you but on second thought,

I cant be bothered. I don't wanna pollute my blog with a post about you.

Neither do I want my fingers to ache. I'll let you live your life,

if you let me live mine. Cos people do wanna confront you, but me?

I just cant be bothered. In my eyes, you're nothing but an immature kid.

You asked B whether she knows what's the meaning of

confidentiality and backstabbing, oh wait, you shouted at her.

Well the ans is, I think you know the meaning more than she does

since you're the one whose backstabbing

evryone to EVRYONE.

Two words for you, GROW UP.